Friday, 13 July 2007

Sunshine-inspired thoughts

Starting today I'm hoping to put on some other things I have been writing about different literature I'm reading, music I'm listening to that is important to me, and other things about our culture. Hence my (lengthy!) post on "Watchmen" below. Thoughts on Francis Shaeffer's brilliant book "The God Who Is There" will come soon.

But for now here's a couple of brief poems I wrote one day when the university campus was fun and full of sun - it was a good day.


Summer

After its preparatory stillness
A flurry of wing sets off the bird
White tips joining at the top where they met

Green blossoming out at me;
Branches waving generously;
I expected none to understand
I felt like summer.

Summer buoyed-up inside
I drank it in on a long tap,
Hoarded sun, its energy
Sustaining from its wide reserves.

Release towards others,
Would be a crucial expression
Of the joy-infused earth.
I, contemplating it,
then sit up, and give.


Rediscovering a friendship

Speaking I expected to be
Edging and then stepping
On ice.

But we had a conversation that day
I drinking in smiles, and pauses
Which were not quite easy, but not awkward.
I, encouraged by words, seeing what was meant,
She, meaning, giving, responsively
Answering.


© 2007 Richard Townrow

My thoughts on reading "Watchmen" (1986-7)

An incredible piece of writing, the themes and ideas in “Watchmen” (1987) by Alan Moore (with art by Dave Gibbons) linger long after its pages are closed. It is about the despair of an alternative world’s America, where terrifying and corrupt right-wing politics, headed up by President Nixon, are fuelling an escalating Cold War, and a few, now outlawed, “costumes” have changed the world and made it more defensive and suspicious. People on the streets are full of hate and fear, and every man is at seemingly at fault – and the well-meaning heroes of former years have recognised the pointlessness of their past work; indeed, they have even escalated the approaching international crisis through their involvement in the brutal war in Vietnam (in this world the US won) and during riots in the 1970s. Within this environment the alienated crime-fighters, in hiding, now have to come to terms with the problems in society, and the book follows their very human stories, as they struggle to find an appropriate response to widespread social problems and the approaching threat of Armageddon. This world is seedy, violent, corrupted at every level – and I warn you, it does not make light reading – a total change of pace from mainstream American superhero comics which have an unrealistic emphasis on idyllic relationships and present a world where heroism usually wins and people always have hope*.

With a big-budget movie adaptation in the works, and its enduring praise from critics, it is tempting to focus on the many aspects that make “Watchmen” so good and involving, without analysing the messages behind each of the multilayered twelve chapters, which is what I would like to do in the rest of this article. Whether the characters speak of the lack of love in the world and the need for change, or whether they turn their fears into evil aggression against the vulnerable, whether they, like Janey, long for exclusive love and warmth in their relationships, or whether they remain detached from society, treating people “like shadows in the fog” (Jon) or like disgusting “human cockroaches” (Rorschach), their stories are interwoven to create a picture of humanity’s heights and depths, and people make widely different judgements about these acts within the book, without a unified answer to these questions of morality. Indeed, as I will show, the novel suggests that there is no unified answer at all.

One fascinating character is Jon, or “Dr Manhattan”, a striking blue man, who comes to symbolise the nearest thing to a god in “Watchmen”. He is indestructible, seemingly eternal, able to create anything out of thin air, and the security of America in its time of crisis. He is able to do all that he wills, without any limitation. But he was formed like this, as a god, by accident, and seems to have no greatly beneficial purpose on Earth, even being manipulated by governments as he has become uninterested in the outcome. He observes humans distantly, even his long-time partner, Laurie, seeing no reason to invest in them or care for them. As the intelligent businessman Veidt explains, Jon has no political bias as it would be as if he were choosing between black ants and red ants.

What a terrible sort of god this is, who only eventually sides with human beings because of his perception that they are intellectually so fascinating and improbable, so fragile yet determined to survive; he humours mankind because they are, in the godless world of “Watchmen”, an interesting phenomenon to arise out of nothing. Here the worldview of writer Moore shines through a little clearer – Jon spiritualises the phenomenon of human life by calling each person a “miracle”, creating an uplifting sense of hope at the end of Chapter IX, but he merely uses the word as he sees that people are randomly made and deeply unpredictable, rather than because they are capable of great good or evil, the crowning piece of Creation made by the Christian God.

This lack of appreciation of humanity’s moral value according to a system of absolute values is also evident in the stories of other characters. Rorschach, who lives by his own moral code while condemning others, is an interesting example. Frequent excerpts from his journal establish this key character’s narrative voice, whose serious cynicism about the world does not prevent him from determining to expose the truth (“Down there…somebody knows” – Chapter I) or from killing to maintain his own idea of justice.

Clad in a classic Marlowe detective hat and raincoat, Rorschach also wears a mask which he considers his true “face”. A character whose state of mind is scrutinised in the book, psychology is even highlighted by his mask, which is white with black marks which resemble Rorschach inkblot tests. He likes it because the two colours change shape but never mix to become grey, reflecting his ruthless sense of order which does not allow for shades of grey. His worldview is suggested in the opening panels of the book: “This city is afraid of me. I have seen its true face.” In the tradition of the American private eye who, often through violence, plays the part of the shining knight in the midst of a corrupt and ruined society, Rorschach despises the world: “The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown […] all the whores and politicians will look up and shout ‘save us!’… and I’ll look down and whisper ‘no’.” (Chapter I.)

This kind of disgust for perpetrators of evil of all kinds is palpable throughout his journal, and when, in Chapter VI, we get a greater insight into his psychological state, we realise there he has a better grasp of the true problem with society than others in “Watchmen”: the problem is the men and women who live in it. Dr Malcolm Long, who visits Rorschach in prison, tries to convince him that “life isn’t like that. The world isn’t like that” – but he himself is so affected by Rorschach’s life story, that he is left at the end of the chapter, transfixed by the idea that there is no meaning in life or any great hope outside of ourselves: “We are alone. There is nothing else.” In the last few panels, as Dr Long stares at another inkblot, he refers to the same “empty meaningless blackness” behind that picture that Rorschach sees behind all of existence: “The cold, suffocating dark goes on forever. And we are alone. … Born from oblivion; bear children, hell-bound as ourselves; go into oblivion. … It is not God who kills the children. Not fate that butchers them or destiny that feeds them to the dogs. It’s us. Only us.”** Such a bleak outlook is strong in “Watchmen”, and is it telling that a highly successful humanist positive psychologist converts to Rorschach’s position, in the long run – recognising that man’s own effort is all they have in that universe to save them. Rorschach, keeping busy by fighting crime and imposing his own strict sense of order, recognises that there is no real good or evil in such a world, saying it is “morally blank”, and there is “no meaning save what we choose to impose” – and so his own position is on the verge of real despair***.

Finally I want to briefly note that the important experiences which transform key characters are left for the readers to make their own judgements, and I find them to be questionable in their realism and their morality. Dan Dreiberg is given hope through the company and sexual attentions of Laurie, which help him to realise he no longer has to be impotent and can work for the better of society (sex [very graphic] becomes a source of new life for the characters, and a focus of feelings of worth). Rorschach has a semi-spiritual transformation from his old identity to the crime-fighter, by coming to the understanding of an evil act before him and taking revenge, while Veidt is inspired on a pilgrimage by a drug-induced vision that he could better the wisdom of past world leaders. Jon, as we have seen, is helped to see that life is unique, and finally determines to go and create life himself. The things these have in common is the confidence that each character comes to have in him or herself – taking action for the better of society can help and fulfils their longings, whereas passivity in such a world of hardship is just a sign that they have “gone soft”, as Rorschach would put it. Tackling situations in the world will not bring permanent solutions but can bring some happiness in the midst of a dark world – as hinted at with the quotation on the final page: “It would be a stronger world, a stronger loving world, to die in.” (John Cole.)



*Such ideology in the real world collapses without real basis for hope, which is only found in Christ: men and women are really more like those that populate “Watchmen” – they are selfish, hate, mug, rape, conceal things and plot all kinds of evil, they search for meaning and purpose in new relationships and initiatives or withdrawal from society. The ambiguous end to the novel does not provide the real salvation for humanity that is needed, that only those who know Jesus can really have when He deals with the evil in our hearts.

**Moore acknowledges the Neitzsche influence here, including the quotation at the end of the chapter: “Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes into you.”

***As a side note, when Rorschach himself is obliterated at the end, it is by his own half-betrayal of his constructed morality. It is ambiguous, but in urging his own destruction to prevent his act of exposing the truth about the conspiracy, and in his evident distress, which cause him to remove his hat and “face”, we perhaps finally see him lose confidence in his own sense of order. He is destroyed by being unable to follow his own constructed path with a clear conscience.

Friday, 1 June 2007

Prayer Life

Just to be clear, this poem is not a prayer that I have prayed, although I can sympathise with what's being said, and I have indeed asked God for help in prayer when things have seemed just too hard. This poem however is trying to describe the problem that humans have understanding that God actually cares, when things are tough. There is a lot of self-obsession in there, and the closing words finish the poem by pointing to how we need God to act towards us. I hope you like it.


Father God,
I can not be – like this – any more
Thoughts are strained out
Paling-away thoughts
Sapping significance even from my closest ties

Lord, what can I do?
The heartache blocks my view,
Yet I never saw it coming.

It affects me in all places
Devastation claims me –
Claim me back.

Feel the stream of muscles in me
Reach limits unknown before
Pursue suffering through and through
Burst their bridges.

Tides budge a dam on its side,
Barrel ahead of my other thoughts.
Why did my mind allow –
If you are you – how could I be so weak –

My inside is turned away,
My breathing dilates, grows closer to the outpoured words
Running free from unchained lips

O God, hear my pleas,
And do not still say
Obligation – and yourself – and others.

Aspects of love

Today's poem is personal, but not because I wrote it - rather because of its content... How do you respond to "love"? How do you offer it? Are you hesitant and fragile, has it lost you or you lost it? Where do you go to find a strong positive love, one that outlasts others?

Enjoy my thoughts, let me know what your response is.

Equally, if you feel I am being too cryptic, let me know about that too!



My love is a dead flower.
It is precious, picked for you,
Cut mercilessly.

Cut off, distant from its source,
Pain excruciating, love everlasting,
Placed into your hand.

Only accept it.

My love's life has passed.
Quiet, still as death-
The very sepals cold and numb,
Embers which have drawn from
The tumultuous fire of life,
Now dull and done.

Each petal separate, yet bound
In a ring around the centre,
Still open and facing you.


My love is like a dead flower-head.
Always dying,
Always offering you love,

Love still going, out-growing,
Even poured out
Amid thorns and cruel shoots.

Words are choked, cut up.

My love which has died
Is better than them,
Has more life than they to give.
They bring blight in each new guise,
Tied attractively, bowed affectionately;
Yet my love remains.

No thorn shall hamper its growth,
No possible thing can hamper
Love's offer

Except you.

Thursday, 31 May 2007

Underneath

Underneath my skin are more
Layers of skin, piled all around
My wrapped-up network of veins,
Arteries and muscles.

Only some parts project outward,
Blink in the air, like eyes, sunder
In three my exposed face-disc –
Or wounds, puncturing blubber:

Antibodies pour to the point of entry,
Grieve over the intrusion,
Pick up the pieces of my flesh,
Make flush the gap of death.

Underneath my skin nothing
Is allowed in.


Shrink-wrapped, shelled up,
My organs suck and push
My bones shine full
My joints wrench sideways

- exhilarating effort I do not see
Beneath the outward projected image
Of my skinny self -
What untold discipline!

Down under my closed skin
I do not feel what happens;
My heart is only in one place,
My nerves merely react.

I wonder who it is
Taking care of me.


© 2007 Richard Townrow

quirky poem

There isn’t much that doesn’t say something about you



We held a dirge for the cat, over dinner,

While baked beans went ping in the microwave.

The two actions went strangely together.


Our pet beetle ran wild one day

But we forgot to pray,

And instead went to play mini-golf.


Hand-me-downs were rejected by us

But it was expensive to buy

Pixar films again and again.


Moses might have had a shining face

But we had shiny shoes

Most days we went to school.


Chances are you will forget:

What you will do in the next minute,

What is significant.



© 2007 Richard Townrow

The sound of the noise

The sound of the noise

cannot be picked up;

but the noise is there,

flickering.


Its roundness is too polished,

slippered, not grasped,

hitched up around your view,

but there.


Shifting into a higher gear

it rises, drilling you

downward into concrete

baskets.


Gathered paving below

oppresses, heightened by

the smoke-laden glow:

Disorientation.


Amidst this grinding cruelty

you suffer and grope,

flee your corner,

always told what to do.


If there was a tower

that broke away from hard grey,

you would ride it

to the top.



2007 Richard Townrow

Purpose of this blog

A few words on the purpose of this blog:

There is much that I need from others. I depend on them to help me in good times and bad, and direct me into good paths and not into others. The world is very needy, a place of difficulty and sadness, war and want. How do we cope?

Each of us contribute, bringing our own unique sound into a world of noise. My (inevitably flawed) contribution to writing is here. The things I can do, I must do. The things that are "me" things, the things that I can enjoy and thank God for, no matter how random (as long as they are good), I can go and do. So I will.

My writing is early and experimental, but I want it to work. I will be putting up my thoughts on different books and thinkers, as well as some poems and other creative things that I do which help me to think things through, or which I hope others will enjoy and/or benefit from. Please reflect on this stuff and then send me your comments here, so I can change and learn too.

I want to make you think. More than that – I want to persuade you, surprise you, challenge and confront you, intrigue you and enliven you, encourage you and grip you. I don't want you to sit still after reading, I want you to be a different person. This, I think, is why anyone writes.

The rest is up to you.

A few words on the purpose of this blog:

There is much that I need from others. I depend on them to help me in good times and bad, and direct me into good paths and not into others. The world is very needy, a place of difficulty and sadness, war and want. How do we cope?

Each of us contribute, bringing our own unique sound into a world of noise. My (inevitably flawed) contribution to writing is here. The things I can do, I must do. The things that are "me" things, the things that I can enjoy and thank God for, no matter how random (as long as they are good), I can go and do. So I will.

My writing is early and experimental, but I want it to work. I will be putting up my thoughts on different books and thinkers, as well as some poems and other creative things that I do which help me to think things through, or which I hope others will anjoy and/or benefit from. Please reflect on this stuff and then send me your comments here, so I can change and learn too.

I want to make you think. More than that – I want to persuade you, surprise you,
challenge and confront you, intrigue you and enliven you, encourage you and grip you. I don't want you to sit still after reading, I want you to be a different person. This, I think, is why anyone writes.

The rest is up to you.